Have you been to the bottom of a very deep valley?
Well
I have been there and I don’t like the feel of it.
Lately,
I have been at the bottom of the pit. It’s not the best place to be but I guess
that is when true character is tested. Since early last month I have been going
through a roller coaster and have had no grip over what has been happening
around me at all. At some point I felt like someone else was pushing me all the
directions I did not want to go into. I felt I was out of control and nothing
was working right, at least to my expectation. This was very frustrating. I had
no control over my finance, my friendships or my job. I was being tossed from
one end to another by day to day situations.
It
is during this time that I learnt to be still. By this I don’t mean standing or
sitting in one position without making any movement. I mean letting the worry of all the cares of
life not move you in all sorts of way. It was not an easy thing to do. It needed
me to surrender everything to God. This meant letting go of even the things I think
I can fix and just letting go…..
I
can tell you, it is not an easy thing to do. This I say because there were
situations where I felt that I could a much better job than God was doing and
even much faster but I needed to surrender and let go… and majorly let God. In
his perfect time He makes all things Perfect. Well I learnt that the hard way.
I needed to learn how to be patient with myself, others and God.
Some
of the most encouraging words were from the song, “it is well”. Since I was not
doing much, I had time to really picture what the author of the song was really
going through. After having lost his business, his family and all that he held
dear, he still said it is well with his soul. I guess he understood some things
most of us don’t understand.
He
knew that everything he had is from God.
He
understood that God’s grace would be sufficient for his every situation.
He
counted his blessings of having a Savior die for him.
Well
I got encouraged by him. I cannot promise to have arrived but for this one
reason that an innocent man gave His life for me, I will do my best to get to that
place where I can say, IT IS WELL WITH MY SOUL. It may take a day, month or
even years but I am not giving up. I will do my best to be still and know that
God is in control of everything.
He
shines the moon at night for and the sun by day. The sun and Moon don’t get
confused as when to shine or not! Therefore, my situations are not a mess
anymore. I will choose to learn what I can from every situation and move on. Baggage
that only slows me down is to be left behind….
